SAB

2012-02-03T21:32:00.000-08:00

CT1 is in a week... i need th motivation to stud :( oh myyyy. i just dont have it, alright life sucks.. things are not going th way i want it to fuck

Maybe you killed me , totally.

2011-12-29T03:03:00.000-08:00

Blogged after a million years. Felt totally down recently. It's like everything's starting all over again. And the problem isn't me being in love with you anymore, it's the fact that you're not even treating me as a friend. Hmmh. We fought quite badly few months ago, and we didn't talk for weeks, well that few weeks were bad. Cos I didn't talk to you, but that few weeks, I had no heartbreaks or crying , but ofc I would rather talk to you. Then we talked & everything went alright , till we started fighting again . And you started your nonsense about not being friends again. What am I supposed to say when you said that? Beg you to be friends? Say sorry? Promise to be a better friend? Guess what , I already did all those & yet we're arguing always. Know how it feels ? I know you don't give a fuck , but i do k? Nothing I say will convince you anymore , you'll just to realize it yourself . But I figured you never will . I want our friendship back . A better one , guess that's too hard for you huh . I gave up a losing battle , happy now ?

" You can be the peanut butter to my jelly.
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly.
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate.
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date.
You can be the hero and I can be your sidekick.
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split.
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's storming.
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the morning. <3 "

YOU CAN IF YOU WANT TO.
But you don't .

15052011

2011-05-15T04:38:00.000-07:00

TODAY'S AWESOME! WE DIDNT ARGUE AND YEAH, JUST AWESOME! (L)

Yeah.

2011-05-06T07:47:00.001-07:00

2011-05-06T07:46:00.001-07:00

Everytime we talk, i fall a little harder for you.

Damn :(

2011-05-06T07:18:00.001-07:00

2011-05-06T07:17:00.002-07:00

Yupp :(

2011-05-06T07:17:00.001-07:00

2011-05-06T07:09:00.001-07:00

)':

2011-05-06T07:08:00.001-07:00

Okay, (:

2011-05-06T06:53:00.000-07:00

to you and only you.

2011-05-04T03:24:00.002-07:00

I dont tell you th truth cos 1. you'll be angry, 2. we'll fight and i dont want to, 3.you dont care and 4.it doesnt change anything. So, since you dont care and it doesnt change anything, why do you still want me to tell you? You say you dk how to change, well you dont need to, cos im th one causing th trouble and getting hurt everytime. dont change cos now's th real you and i like you for being you. i guess th only person that has to change is me. i need to change, i need to be less sensitive to whatever you do, i need to control my emotions and i need to be less jealous. Im gonna change myself, and its gonna be worth it cos im gonna change so i wont get hurt next time by you ever again. idk why we're fighting cos of her everytime, worth to sacrifice our friendship cos of her? idk, why dont you answer me? if you feel its worth it, then so be it then. I respect your decision. yeah i want to give up and forget you, but i cant. i'll let go and let you be happy, and maybe i'll be happy too. yes i like you, i know its stupid and you dont care, but yeah i just like you. I hate it when you always raise my hopes up and fucking crash them down, over and over again. You must be wondering why i dont tell you all this huh? well, if i do tell you, will it make a diff? when we argue, like yst, you kept saying dont be like that can. i know you tried to make me less sad, and yeah i was happy for that. but after i was okay, you did it again. crash them all down, then whats th point of saying everything to cheer me up? Its not like I wanna be like that, i have to, so i wont get hurt anymore. I have to be like this to prepare myself for th next time you hurt me. for th next time all th crap starts again. I didnt want to show you attitude, i wanted to talk to you nicely, but did you think of what you did and said that made me behave that way? i guess not huh. you always get angry with me, for idk what reason, think about it luh. why did i behave like that? I was damn fucked up when you said i like elizabeth okay, i dont. i told you i like kayz cos you kept asking and i didnt want to tell you th truth cos i promised myself i'll get over you. when i wrote th letter and read back last month's one, i tried not to cry, cos once again, i promised myself that last week would be th last time im crying for you. everyone knew i cried, everyone knew why. all except you i guess. i guessed my clique this question 'in everyone's life thr is someone they truth th most and tell everything to' in my life, its you. but i learnt not to alr. Of everything you told me, i didnt say anything. i only said about th christopher one and i learnt ffrom that and didnt tell anyone anything alr. but you? How many have you told mine to her? idk and idw to know, cos its gonna hurt fucking bad. i had enough, i really had. i hope one day, we'll stop fighting completely, thats why im saying everything now. If i could still choose again, i guess i'll still choose you. Im sorry for being sucha a irritating junior. im sorry for being such a nuisance to you. im sorry for being sucha bitch. im sorry for causing all this. lastly, sorry that i liked you. Im sorry for everything i did, and sorry for walking in to your life. im sorry. but i never regretted anything i did, i only regret not doing anything when i could.

Fyeah, (:

2011-05-04T03:24:00.001-07:00

Okay,^^

2011-04-30T08:39:00.000-07:00

You and her, ):

2011-04-30T05:18:00.001-07:00

Fyeah today (:

2011-04-25T07:35:00.001-07:00

you lorh

2011-04-24T08:39:00.002-07:00

yeah why

2011-04-24T08:39:00.001-07:00

Thats why i cry.

2011-04-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

Oh ohh ohhhh :)

2011-04-24T08:09:00.001-07:00

Okay, i'll try now (: (:

2011-04-24T08:01:00.000-07:00

Alot alot :)

2011-04-24T08:00:00.001-07:00

so cute :>

2011-04-24T07:57:00.002-07:00

Yeap, you :)

2011-04-24T07:57:00.001-07:00

One day we'll swop places.

2011-04-24T07:55:00.002-07:00

So dont treat me like one.

2011-04-24T07:55:00.001-07:00

yeah.

2011-04-24T07:44:00.001-07:00

yeah. you :>

2011-04-24T07:42:00.000-07:00

YEAH luh, wlao eh.

2011-04-24T04:53:00.001-07:00

Yeah waiting uhh. (:

2011-04-24T04:51:00.000-07:00

Always huh?

2011-04-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

MISS YOU? SURE? :>

2011-04-24T04:47:00.002-07:00

YOU.

2011-04-24T04:47:00.001-07:00

you mean her?

2011-04-24T04:46:00.002-07:00

Stops?

2011-04-24T04:46:00.001-07:00

Yup, :(

2011-04-24T04:45:00.001-07:00

yeah, ^^

2011-04-24T04:44:00.001-07:00

Yeah you luh, tsk :(

2011-04-24T04:43:00.001-07:00

HAHHAA(:

2011-04-24T04:42:00.001-07:00

Aiyah, i alr know you're reading my blog.

OUCH ):

2011-04-24T04:41:00.000-07:00

ALL TH TIME, :(

2011-04-24T04:37:00.000-07:00

wlao eh.

2011-04-24T04:36:00.001-07:00

yes

2011-04-24T04:35:00.001-07:00

and i missed you alot last night.

Yeah, :(

2011-04-24T04:33:00.001-07:00

HAHA yeah, not me right!

2011-04-24T04:32:00.001-07:00

Yeap.

2011-04-24T04:30:00.002-07:00

Both.

2011-04-24T04:30:00.001-07:00

yeah, (:

2011-04-24T04:29:00.001-07:00

I WISH I COULD.

2011-04-23T05:08:00.000-07:00

Every minute, every second, :)

2011-04-23T04:54:00.001-07:00

yeah

2011-04-23T04:44:00.000-07:00

FUCK YEAH, :(

2011-04-23T04:42:00.001-07:00

Hahah, yeah (:

2011-04-23T04:40:00.000-07:00

Smile or cry? ):

2011-04-23T04:36:00.000-07:00

Okay.

2011-04-23T04:29:00.000-07:00

Hehe.

2011-04-23T02:17:00.001-07:00

):

2011-04-23T00:37:00.000-07:00

): !

2011-04-22T09:35:00.002-07:00

Gullible crap.

2011-04-22T09:35:00.001-07:00

hehe

2011-04-22T09:31:00.000-07:00

i cant hold on ):

2011-04-22T09:15:00.000-07:00

YOU, :)

2011-04-22T09:14:00.002-07:00

Wont be th milky way without you ^^

2011-04-22T09:14:00.001-07:00

Yeah, why? isit me? or you? or everything?

2011-04-22T09:03:00.000-07:00

I guess i have to say thanks huh (:

2011-04-22T08:59:00.000-07:00

2011-04-22T05:57:00.001-07:00

2011-04-22T05:55:00.001-07:00

2011-04-22T05:54:00.001-07:00

wad more can i do?

2011-04-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

2011-04-22T05:47:00.001-07:00

2011-04-22T05:44:00.000-07:00

2011-04-22T05:02:00.001-07:00

2011-04-22T04:53:00.000-07:00

NOTHING MORE, NOTHING LESS (:

2011-04-21T05:15:00.000-07:00

I JUST LIKE YOU, FULLSTOP. NOTHING MORE, NOTHING LESS.

Why cant you understand?

2011-04-21T05:14:00.002-07:00

:D

2011-04-21T05:14:00.001-07:00

Sorry uh, i dont have energy left to prove it to you alr.

2011-04-21T05:12:00.000-07:00

OHYEAH, (:

2011-04-21T05:10:00.002-07:00

YEAH. :( and it sucks :/

2011-04-21T05:10:00.001-07:00

Yeah, since when uh?

2011-04-21T05:08:00.000-07:00

Specially for you.

2011-04-21T04:24:00.000-07:00

I need to forget you, i need to forget everything that happened between us. i need everything to stop right now and go back to th way it was before. cos its fucking too pain and i cant stand it anymore, stop it. I need to stop being so sensitive to everything you say, im trying to, you think its so easy? try it yourself then. try not to be angry when i tell you th truth, you cant right? cos it seems like you're still angry with me over anything i do. You lied over and over again, and i cried over and over again, i have no idea why also. why is life so hard? why do you have to make it so complicated? Yeah , i jealous, so? What am i gonna/ can do about it? nothing huh. You keep asking me if i still like you, will it make a diff if you knew i still did? NO. nothing at all :( Go stead with her luh huh, make me forget you once and for all.

yeah, stop it :/

2011-04-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

Yes, omfg.

2011-04-21T04:22:00.002-07:00

(:

2011-04-21T04:22:00.001-07:00

So you're th first arent you?

2011-04-21T04:21:00.001-07:00

yeap.

2011-04-21T04:19:00.000-07:00

why is it all happening? :(

2011-04-21T04:12:00.000-07:00

YEAH I DO :(

2011-04-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

Perfect creature ^^

2011-04-21T04:01:00.000-07:00

Thankyou, (:

2011-04-21T04:00:00.000-07:00

)':

2011-04-21T03:57:00.000-07:00

Yes i am. :>

2011-04-20T08:08:00.001-07:00

I WANT, :(

2011-04-20T08:04:00.002-07:00

):

2011-04-20T08:04:00.001-07:00

AWW, (:

2011-04-20T07:56:00.000-07:00

I'll be here whenever you need me, anytime you need me. (: I like th handwriting :>

yeah,

2011-04-16T03:42:00.001-07:00

i wanna do that too! D:

2011-04-16T03:37:00.001-07:00

HAHAHA, yeah right :>

2011-04-16T03:33:00.000-07:00

I guess they had you in mind when they made this, :)

2011-04-16T03:30:00.000-07:00

i want all :(

2011-04-16T03:29:00.001-07:00